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Education

EMPOWERING STUDENTS -a better way towards learning

“Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.” —Gandhi

Great words by Gandhi ji but the truth is we are dyeing with pressure of having exams tomorrow isn’t it? Exactly.

There are certain things in the education system which doesn’t appeal learning in fact they focus more on achieving better marks .education was meant to be the way towards learning rather than achieving …
Learning through experiences, through experimenting ,through the way we wish to ,we will surely fall somewhere but will learn with that too…
will make mistake but will surely learn to find some way to get out of that ….

“Experience: that most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God do you learn.” —C.S. Lewis

we just need the permission ,permission to find our own directions we wanted to fly through ,and that’s what we call empowerment.

The term empowerment refers to measures designed to increase the degree of autonomy and self-determination in people and in communities in order to enable them to represent their interests in a responsible and self-determined way, acting on their own authority. It is the process of becoming stronger and more confident, especially in controlling one’s life and claiming one’s rights .
Now talking about student empowerment ,
Student empowerment is any attitudinal, structural, and cultural activity, process or outcome where students of any age gain the ability, authority and agency to make decisions and implement changes in their own schools, learning and education, and in the education of other people, including fellow students of any age and adults throughout education.

In simpler words when people like your fellow mates get some authority to make relevant changes in the school or education system on account of entire student league or should I say on the behalf of all the students known as student empowerment.
Well when we hear this word student empowerment this sounds quiet alien to us because we have heard about women empowerment ,but never student empowerment ,see we are not the weaker section of the society but we are the future of this society and when it comes to learning this can’t be bounded within few hours or can’t be tied with a list of protocols .
We pay ,we follow,we obey,we memorize but do we really learn by this…?
Silence !!!…keep quite ,pin drop silence…
Remember this ?
Why miss? Stand up !! get out of the class ,stand for the whole period , remember all those punishments?
But miss I was just asking something …no you were disturbing the class …raise your hands …
Tell me what does that teaches you accept that teachers are not lovable accept that you need to stay quite until you were asked to speak…was that education any way ? was that meant to be learn ?
Well if you ask me that was just a training ,ya training for how to be a robot ,lifeless speechless just runs on a certain set of instructions ….
We are not machine made of muscles and nerves these nerves do leads to the brain which in return releases certain hormones that’s how we poses emotions …
I usually don’t like reading certain subjects when I don’t like the teacher at all …it takes me hard efforts to fulfil my target of 75% attendance ya somehow I passed the exams but if you are thinking you may ask something related I m sorry I haven t learned anything …
By the time when I’ve realized that this process wont lead me towards learning so I betrayed .No didn’t give up or else I dint threw up some march or something I just started learning things the way I wanted to but that wasn’t good enough to achieve marks right ? because you ultimately had to be in this flock of sheep , for that I need certificates ,a job so at the end we came to the point we have started from ….because a single man couldn’t bring up a big change but ya small small changes could lead to the big one…..and that’s why we need get empowered.
We need to get empowered so that we at least learn something in real when we say we are educated …

“Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.” —Goethe

Lets make ourselves to be worth educated by learning not by achieving ….

“Do not wait to strike till the iron is hot; but make it hot by striking.” —William Butler Yeats

Be proud to be a student because learning is tough not the teaching ….
Thanks for reading

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Political

POLITICS AND INDIA

In the year 2001 an amazing Hindi thriller was released which was my personal favourite “Nayak” if you have ever heard of Mr. Anil kapoor I m damm sure you might remember his great character as “shivaji rao “.The one day C.M (chief minister) who brings up the revolution ,challenging all thy corrupted officers and political leaders .A common man who was portrayed as a sacrificing political leader who wished to work for the welfare of the society rather than focusing on his family planning or personal security .
Really hard to do …isn’t it? yeah off course when I was a kid I had so many issues with the government and with the entire political system.t As I grew up my issues didn’t get sorted but somewhere at some point my hopes died. Being a kid when I use to plan my future I also thought to do something … something like real big that could bring some revolutionary change in the country .I wanted to do something that could leads to dimulsyfy all those facts that has made people hate politics .But you know as you grow older you got to realize the fact that this isn’t that easy as it was portrayed in that movie …is it ?I don’t about you but I ,I gave upon that dream of mine and instead of that I started carrying just a small dream bag of small small goals like engineering ,average marks ,campus placement ,marriage, kids, vacations and death ….a peaceful death in a cushiony coffin.
That sounds easy …ya it is the easiest thing I could think of.

Wait but was it that easy to die peacefully?I don’t think so ..
What about that huge donation amount you’ve asked to pay before admission that wasn’t the part of fees ?was that legal? And what about all those paper works when you need to bribe all those government employees just for a simple verification task or some thing.?all those times when you were being played on or being harrased by someone but there was no one to hear you out…I guess that’s our basic right isn’t it ? how could you die peacefully in some government hospital when there are no doctors …then where they ?umm take this card go get your check up done in his private hospital…usual? Exactly.

Now tell me can you die peacefully here ? forget about millions of small boxes tell me just one ,only one that you could do here without any hussles and bussles.
OK don’t get disheartened or confused .lets try to understand it Right from the beginning.what do you think when you hear the term politics ? does that sound similar when you spell “Raajneeti”? No exactly that’s the real issue when we call politics as “Raajneeti” does that any way sounds like public welfare or something ?simply if you notice it clearly states that Raajneeti is the policy to win the kingship …and that’s why we simply hates politics but when this word is already stating that any man involved in this is only for the kingship not for the welfare then why we stupid Indians do expect from them?…
We have no right to abuse them neither to call them betrayers…

Why would they sacrifice ? OK so you are thinking about that oath they take ?what !! do you remember yours?”India is my country and all Indians are my brothers and sister …..”do you really do that ? do you really treat every Indian as your brother or sister ? do you even show humanity ?do you really help people around you without judging them on the basis of their caste and colour ?do you really meant equality when you ask for it ? do you really respect people of all those 29 states and is that like you never made fun of any other Indian language ?do you really feel like united when you write a whole damm essay on unity in diversity?

I’m not gonna say anything but just think for a while do you really think a  bunch of stupids could destroy the population of a billion ? … I guess now you have your answers…
There is nothing wrong with the politics in india we just need to work on ourselves rest will get changed by itself …
Be an Indian without being south Indian ,north indian ,Gujarati ,Rajasthani or whatever …
If you want changes its only you who could make it …
So don’t wait for the right time because magic doesn’t happen …they are just smart tricks..
There is nothing like Indian politics we are independent since 1947 and this is our responsibility to make it sounds like worth democratic…
Follow the law not the politics…

“Thanks for reading”
 

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Civics Political

Politics of India

India is the largest democracy in the world. India has the biggest number of people with franchise rights and the largest number of political parties, which take part in election campaign. In the 1996 national elections, almost 600 million people voted and an average of 26 candidates competed for each of the 543 territorial constituency seats.

Elections
Elections are held at different levels. The two major election levels are at national level, after which the national government is established and at state level after which the state government is established. Elections are also held for city, town and village councils.
Politics issues
•  ­Social issues
The lack of homogeneity in the Indian population causes division between different sections of the people based on religion, region, language, caste and race. This has led to the rise of political parties with agendas catering to one or a mix of these groups. Parties in India also target people who are not in favour of other parties and use them as an asset.
• Economic Issues
Economic issues like poverty, unemployment, development are main issues that influence politics. Garibi hatao (eradicate poverty) has been a slogan of the Indian National Congress for a long time. The well known Bharatiya Janata Party(BJP) encourages a free market economy. The more popular slogan in this field is Sab Ka Sath, Sab ka Vikas (Cooperation with all, progress of all). The Communist Party of India (Marxist) vehemently supports left-wing politics like land-for-all, right to work and strongly opposes neo-liberal policies such as globalisation, capitalism and privatisation.

• Law and Order

Law and order issues, such as action against organised crime are issues which do not affect the outcomes of elections. On the other hand, there is a criminal–politician nexus. Many elected legislators have criminal cases against them. In July 2008, the Washington Post reported that nearly a fourth of the 540 Indian Parliament members faced criminal charges, “including human trafficking, child prostitution immigration rackets, embezzlement, rape and even murder”.
Different shades of Politics in india
In india, politics is now corrupted and corroded. There are so many negative effects of politics on our economic value. The quality of India’s politicians, many argue, has declined drastically, as in many parts of the world. Most of them seem to be out of sync with modern day realities – expectations have fallen so ridiculously low that an iPad carrying politician is described by the media as a modern one!
Most are also seen as greedy, corrupt and disinterested in serious reform. The increasing number of politicians with criminal records and the brazen use of money to buy party tickets and bribe voters erodes India’s ailing democratic process.

 
 

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Technology

An intelligent threat!!


Ever talked to Alexa? Who is she? What!! You don’t know? well she is someone who could manage your schedule your data could be accompany you as a friend she isn’t a lady but an amazing creation of Dr.Ashwin Ram .she could wake you up ,play songs for you could talk to you and many more ..sounds nice ?yeah it is but how is it possible ?well that’s what we call science ,science which is growing with drastically high speed so that machines could now learn by themselves without any human help and that’s what we call machine learning .
A machine is now ready to understand human language and could communicate to other machines without any ports or cables .sounds great!!But not really this process of learning leads to the development of machine’s own intelligence path which is known as artificial intelligence. So then what’s the issue?
Well if you have ever seen the movie “Robot “performed by sir Rajnikant this was the best example that explains all about the upcoming threats to the human existence if ever artificial intelligence would took upon the world.
A machine when starts learning itself it might get intelligent even more than the most intelligent man in the world .Now just think for a while would you follow the instructions of a less capable person than you ? No obviously not .Same goes with this artificial brain ,it would start developing its own codes and protocols will start upgrading itself as faster as it could probably humans would lose all of their control upon these machines.
The simplest reason behind this is the biological construction of human body full of limitations its brain has a limitation to absorb things it has a limited lifespan, while machines are simply limitless considerably immortal with expandable memory .scary??
Now let’s start thinking right from the beginning what is a machine??
In simple words anything that could ease our work .now when machines would get smarter they would be replacing humans at the work place.by this the employment rate would greatly affect .slowly slowly machines would start replacing emotional values among humans by their influence, no work, unemployment, easy life either that would makes man inefficient or else the poverty would reach to its highest pace or may be both.
Gradually what we would see is just machines all around .what!!Does it sound scary now?? But wait what if they came up with a thought of destroying man? The entire human race would reach to its end …
So just wait, stop, sit and think for a while, what are we up to upgrading technology or destroying lives??

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Travel

Experiencing nature!!

From plains to plateues, from oceans to mountains we have a great geographical variation. So as there climatic conditions and have we have been provided with a large variety of vegetation.
Light fruity breeze and walking on fresh flushy grass is so relaxing…isn’t it?
And do you remember your early childhood drawings  where there was  always a hut, a tree, mountains and a bright yellow sun…that’s  so common, common as a common man’s dream ,a small house and a garden.
But every age has a different wish list now we are at the age of exploring; we are at the age of discovering and experiencing the beauty of thy mother nature. Spirits which are really willing to face challenges ,wanted to climb mountains ,wants to dive deep down into the oceans and want to capture this colorful world into eyes and yeah into  cameras too.
Well to cut in short rather than sitting on a relaxing chair and sipping coffee while reading newspaper ,we would  love to tour. Now what is tourism? It is basically about travelling for pleasure and business purpose.
People usually prefer visiting monuments to experience the history ,they pay there and follow rule although I never felt any excited while watching all those old boring buildings’ they all were so similar …broken destroyed and the most annoying thing in india was all those hearts and names scribbled into it … so dam irritating .
I would rather wish to feel that light rain showering small water droplets and those clouds covering all those mountains, those beautiful blossoming  flowers  and those tiny green leaves…wow so mesmerising ,morelike I m in heaven.
Well there is a term for this “eco tourism”.
What is ecotourism exactly?? Ecotourism is a form of tourism involving visiting fragile, pristine, and relatively undisturbed natural areas, intended as a low-impact and often small scale alternative to standard commercial mass tourism. It means responsible travel to natural areas conserving the environment and improving the well-being of the local people.
In simple words as I said experiencing nature without disturbing its balance, with a responsible thought of con
servation.
In India you can experience all of all of the different varieties.
Say wanna experience snow fall go towards the north Kashmir, dehradun etc..,
If you want to experience desert life and sunburns you are most welcome to Rajasthan, want to go beach? Book your tickets for Goa.
What never saw any coconut tree? Why waiting plan your vacations for south .full of greenery and a great architectural history ….and so much more.
Smart people of India while writing Vedas they have created a way so that all those 28 states and hundreds of languages would be able to know each other’s culture and experience this beautiful country….for which they discovered a term call “teertha” and according to Indian mythology only after visiting all four theerths in the northern, southern eastern and western parts of India a man could get into heaven.
And hence they actually experience heaven before being called belated.
So welcome to India and experience heaven …or should I say try and have an experience of eco tourism.
Feel fresh, live fresh, experiencelife by exploring the world…
Get connected to nature through eco tourism…
Thanks for reading…

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Inspirational Motivation

friendships and my flight ….


Clutched into a trap of emotions, fears regrets under the sag of guilt I’ve past six years of my life.
With all those messy thoughts and noise signals suppressing my informative signals getting into my brain .I’ve waited this long and important period of my life.
People usually call it as depression but I could have never found any strong reason to call it depression I said I was just messed up wasn’t in really.
Being an understanding and responsible father my dad took me to psychologist for counseling and to a psychiatrist t but when I didn’t get any better he changed my doctor .year after year I’ve been treated under many different psychiatric supervision.
But the situation was getting worst and worst I moved to hostel where I was unable to adjust and overcome my mess.
After a long time period of time when I met one of my old friends, she observed something really unusual.
She asked me “where is my Jahnavi “.
I replied here “I am right in front of you “.but she wasn’t convinced with all those pointes I presented to justify my unusual behavior.
After a friendship of 15 years she knew me so well that she could clearly look deep into my soul and thy brain of mine, it didn’t took hrs for her to figure out my mess.
She didn’t consoled me neither did she asked anything. She only used to come at my place took me somewhere to eat and have fun and let me express all of my emotions. She didn’t advised me anything .she just made me introduced to the real me , she made me realized that I m special ,I m strong ,that I could do anything I wish to .
More like lord hanuman I’ve just forgotten my powers all I need to be jus recall them.
So she started spending most of her time hearing me and I puked all my mess in front of her and trust me that was damm relaxing.
This process was more like doing amplitude modulation by passing an attenuated signal through a low pass filter making it free from noise and retrieving only information signals.
Now my brain was only getting informative signals and I started discovering my own new personality shaping it according to the way I wanted to be, rather than stay spilled on to the wall.
Truly a friend in need is a friend indeed…
A friend did what no psychologist and psychiatrist could do.
She made my soul free, free from that cage of mess and made me what I m today
I m free today, free from regret, free from all those scary thoughts, guit and free from that word of depression.
I use to think why we need friend and now I know all of us need a true friend more than anything else.
Do share all your inner demons with your friends ,call them ,tell them that you are so lucky to have them ,tell them every small to smallest thing that feels buried in .just split all that up don’t swallow it down.
Love your friends, respect them…
Be with them in all those time when you need them and all those times when they need you.
Live free…
Feel free…
Be you, keep sharing, and keep smiling…
Thanks for reading

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Health Uncategorized

fly high!!


Hey friends hope you remember about my last article on menstruation and its awareness!!!
Well today I’m gonna talk about something related to it, today i’ll be talking about menstrual hygiene and lack of awareness. People like you and me most of us don’t know how our menstrual hygiene is important, lack of attention could lead you to infertility,vaginal infections or it may leads to death also …
When we call something is private it is surely be hidden and taken care of especially. So as our private body parts.
I guess most of you might be well aware of sanitary napkins (pads), have seen in many advertisements .right? Surely.
But have you ever heard of the thing like tampons, menstrual cups, thinx, reusable washable pads? I guess not at least all of them.
So yes other than sanitary napkins there is more menstrual stuff available in the market for not only women hygiene but also the empowerment.
How many of you do think that being a female you should avoid swimming or cycling or may be racing and any another exercising stuff? Do these stain fear stop you somewhere in the ground? Doesn’t let you fly high or to dive deep into sea. Well not any more there are things for you tampons and menstrual cups are the two sensational products that have changed women’s life to a great extent well you don’t wear then more like pads but these things are meant to insert.
Starting with tampons; a tampon is a mass of absorbent material, primarily used as a feminine hygiene product. At present, tampons are designed to be easily inserted in .to the vagina during menstruation and absorb the menstrual flow.

A menstrual cup is a feminine hygiene product that is inserted into the vagina during menstruation. Its purpose is to prevent menstrual fluid (blood containing uterine lining) from leaking onto clothes. Menstrual cups are usually made of flexible medical grade silicone and shaped like a bell with a stem. The stem is used for insertion and removal. The bell-shaped cup seals against the vaginal wall just below the cervix. Every 4–12 hours (depending on the amount of flow), the cup is removed, emptied, rinsed, and reinserted.

In short tampons in some highly absorbable cottony tube that is inserted into the vaginal area and this absorbs blood while cups are made of some soft fiber that is inserted in the vaginal part to collect blood this could be washed and reinserted after 12 to 24 hrs .so now no need to worry about blood stains.
Now moving on to thinx I m dam sure you haven’t heard of it .well these are menstrual panties where the crotch is 4 layers thick and absorbs light to medium amounts of menstrual flow. Girls/young women can wear this type of underwear with or without a tampon. They are washable and reusable and environmentally friendly. So now no need to wearing pads too … well they are quite expensive yet they are way more comfortable than anything else.
Not just this we have more of reusable, washable pads and wide range of tampons and menstrual cups but these entire have some or other limitations along. But in future there would be something more compatible for sure.
Well friends today I won’t ask any questions? But just wait stop and think are you really taking care of your menstrual hygiene and all those women around you see I know that’s quite tough to accept new things but why not? Let’s fly high without looking back …
Try to know more about hygiene products…
Be safe, live life healthy, stay aware …
Thanks for reading ….

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Education Health

Being woman and taboos


I was 10 when I got introduced to this term “periods” with a big shhhh…..
My pain, irritations, discomfort, all those mood swings and my sickness was a secret among me and other women in the house.
I can’t discuss anything about it openly shhhh….shhhh…
I always thought when the use of baby diapers and sanitary napkins are so alike then, why they are supplied like drugs .That feels so embarrassing to ask for a pad from a male shopkeeper and all those layers of newspaper wrapping and then into a black polythene passed beneath the table .not just that after all that you need to find another safe place to hide your secret.
In fact how many of you know about all those myths and all thy shitty rule women have to follow during these days?
Let me tell you there is a whole damm list of protocols different for the women in different community .like if you are a “Jain” you could relate to it  most. Have you ever noticed that on some particular days your mom doesn’t serve you food? That she is not sleeping on bed and wearing rags (clothes she probably won’t wear during normal days)? Have you seen here eating alone? And have you ever observed her walking out in the dark? Well if not then I guess you need to open up your eyes.
Let’s start from the basics what is menstruation? Menstruation, also known as a period or monthly, is the regular discharge of blood and mucosal tissue (known as menses) from the inner lining of the uterus through the vagina. The first period usually begins between twelve and fifteen years of age, a point in time known as menarche. In simpler words after a particular age female ovaries starts releasing ovum (egg) and this gets fertile when a sperm fusses with it later which turns into a baby .for which after every 28 days a female body starts preparing developing a muscular cushion for the baby in the uterus for its protection and further development .now when an egg is released and doesn’t gets fertile the muscular wall automatically starts decaying (shedding) and discharging the waste through vagina in the form of blood. Since this process is a bit slow so this usually ends up within 120-170hrs.yes we bleed for 5 to 7 days continuously in a month .Amazed? Or shocked?
What did you find here worth hiding? What is there to be embarrassed of?
It is not a disease it’s just another biological process and it doesn’t only happens with humans but elephants and apes do have periods too. More like when you pee or you do shit, when you discuss your constipation and diarrhea openly. When you Indians laugh upon fart jokes along with your friend’s .This is as usual as all those things.
I don’t say I’m sick these days or it’s that time of the month I clearly I don’t hesitate to say hey I m on my periods. And I’ m proud to be a woman because I ‘m the one who could do anything, when I could bear such great pain, when I can deal with all those challenges during those days. this is what motivates me every time that I m more powerful than any guy around me it’s just that he could throw thing and I can keep things in .he can give pain and I can bear it to any extend .I m proud that only i can create the path for the survival of human existence. Then why should I be shushing.
I just want to ask you why? Why men should not know about it? Why they shouldn’t beware of the reason behind all those irritations and mood swing they make  joke of? Why they shouldn’t know that to be a mother we don’t just sacrifice those damm 9 months and our career but we go through a huge pain since our entire teenage and adulthood, through all those years when they blame us to be in efficient and weak? They should know about what we are going through.
I really believe that man should be aware of everything like that so that they start respecting women around them.
Remember all those session during your early teenage when girls had a special seminar about sanitary napkins and menstrual hygiene and what did guys do they wait ,they wait outside developing their own funny stories to laugh on .the make there own assumptions. The entire age they remain unaware of the truth and just die along with their misconceptions .and how would they get to know this? Who would tell them about that? when females don’t allow themselves to talk about this, and then we expect men to understand our pain.
Yes I do remember that chapter 9 of NCERT book in class 8th “Reproduction” for which entire class was excited but no one was interested to teach .whatever my teacher taught me was all about plants and rest all was bla bla….english that flew off my brain.
So, this bla bla and lack of awareness made this situation more difficult and uncomfortable for women.
When in this era you celebrate international women’s day and when we talk about women empowerment and equality. then why don’t we understand that sharing and talking about such topics would let men understand women in a much better way and respect them, they won’t judge her in fact would rather try to help her..
If a sperm is important for further DNA extension then ovum is equally important too….
It’s a process not a taboo…
Feel free to talk about periods don’t make it feel like a curse, it’s just another painful process that makes you stronger that makes you a complete women…
Be proud to be what you are…
Feel proud to be a woman…
Thanks for reading

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Motivation Uncategorized

Another number!!


Have you ever watched the movie “Ye Jawani Hai Dewani” really a great concept about life. Remember what did bunny said “unlike others I’m not goanna have same boring life, graduations till 22, job at 24, married by 25, and then after retirement wait…wait till you die”.sound like so boring and lifeless .well that’s the reality and how we actually live not everyone but most of us .I’m sure about at least 90% of us.
A life full of responsibilities, stress, office targets, and pressure to score high, compeditions, studies and bla bla bla…..we have so much to do in such small time.
I so wish if a day could be of more than 24hr.so that at least I could sleep for sometime peacefully. Well can’t help it right?
The era has changed, people are changing too. Now parents do ask their kids about their career preferences rather than imposing their own incomplete dreams.
But, are you guys still sure about whatever you are doing? Are you sure about the course you are perusing at present? About the job you are doing? Were you really sure about what to choose after high school?
I don’t know about you people but I wasn’t. I have never got enough time to explore and try new things, neither to discover my own new personality ,or to think about what I like and what I dislike? What I want do ?How I want to be ?every time I was busy in shaping myself according to the vessel my parents poured me into .
I thought after 10th I’ll be having 3 months (enough time) to think about my future but my bad luck there were no vacations my classes started just after few days of my exams .I opted PCM only because my brother told me that by this I’ll be having many options to mold my career whenever I would be ready and now I would be having two years to decide.
Sounds fine? Yeah…
Now, after I have entered in class XI I got busy with lectures, coaching’s, syllabus, competitions etc. Through all those years I was running behinds everything, and forgot to stop and think, of the direction where I wanted to go. I was just rushing along with that flock of sheep.
Then after 12th my father asked –“what do you want to be? “I was all blank…
I had no idea about what is B.tech for? What is B.com for? What is the difference between B.sc and B.A? What will theses courses make you? What are all UG courses which one was for PG? I didn’t know about any of them.
Because I wasn’t ready with any idea so, my father told me to pursue Btech and become an electrical engineer. I said ok cool no issue. Now the next issue was about college. As I didn’t had any idea about what’s really going .so my destiny threw me here in Bansthali Vidhypith where after spending three years I’ve realized that not every course is worth pursuing and especially when you are not really sure …
Here day after day I have met different kind of people ,faced many challenges ,explored a lot and the best thing I discovered most of me yeah not the whole of me but the most the most of me .
So now I know at least engineering is not my cup of tea…
And that I was made for something else…
May be that’s psychology, may be law, may be literature, I don’t know but I m pretty sure that’s not engineering.
Now a question arises why? Why I’m still doing it? Why I’m still trying to fall in love with these complicated circuits which has made my brain system corrupted? Well that’s only because of my age come on I’m 21 I should be earning before I get 24 and marriage ,you know how the society is ?All those great guys would get booked by the time I’ll be 26 …ha-ha really ??
So that’s why I can’t think of starting my journey with a whole new pace …and is it worth starting with a zero? Is it worth struggling when I’ll need more of my age to invest?
Now do you realize why people usually give upon their dreams and keep on doing the same shit with same unhappy faces? Just because of so many questions which enter into your brain more like virus that eats up all your decision making files…
but why is that age matters more than your life when it’s just the 20% of yours and you are sacrificing whole damm 80%for that ?I can’t waste my 80% in just crying and regretting that I could have been happier if I would have taken just a small step for myself .
I think there is no particular age when you get to know yourself completely. Every next day you discover a new you .and in this life, age could never be a time limit when you have no surety about the next second of your life …
Feel free to do whatever you with to do and whenever you want to .don’t let your age stop you .it’s just another number doesn’t matter if its 21,41or if even its 81…
Live this life, just don’t spend it….
Thanks for reading …

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Inspirational Motivation Uncategorized

Not ready yet …


6th Feb. 1997 a baby girl was born in kalaniketan, who has always been pampered and nurtured with eternal love and care .this baby girl was given entire attention of the family which probably a baby boy could ever get .yes you guessed it right that’s me …
Since the day when a child takes birth the entire family got sparkled with joy and happiness .Till the extend a baby could see he/she would only be recognising smiling faces .so ,this is an occasion for celebration right ?off course and that’s why we celebrate birthdays .
And special mention to the first child as I’m the elder one too .New parents are usually very excited for this great new challenge ,new responsibilities and lots of new fun memories .
Right from his clothes ,toys ,soap, medicine ,pillows every small to smallest thing has to be taken care of, not just after the baby was born but even before than that, in fact since the day when they get the news of pregnancy .not just parents but everyone else starts discussing the baby’s name ,his /her career etc.,
Well if a coin has a head then surely there would be tail too. And my tale is about “death”.
I clearly don’t remember all of my childhood but in my blurry pictures all I remember was only a few faces .I don’t remember how did my mom reacted when she saw me for the first time .neither do i remember about how my dad took me in his arms for the first time .
My childhood memories starts with a park, a park where my grandpa use to take me, every morning and the evening for a walk, with the smell of those flowers I use to pluck .including all those fascinating stories my grandma use to tell me, with all those edibles grandpa use to offer me so that I would stop crying .and all those games I played with my mom ,with all those toys and chocolates my dad use to bring.
Till the day my baby brother was born .No I didn’t got abundant neither did they started ignoring me .but in my blurry pictures its most of me and my grandparents. The time when grandpa used to drop me to the school, when we use to play together ,when he teaches me in the evening and all those winter nights with born fire and all those fun moments I spent with them.
All those memories and all those moments always made me feel like I’m the luckiest person that I have such cool people in my life.
They have never let me feel that I’m anyways less than a guy and all those values they have poured into the mud of my soul which made me what I m today . The best gift they have ever given me was my vision of practicality and positivity .so, me and my small world starts and ends within these few people. whenever I sat onto the platform and wished to fly they have always been my shield or should I say my all time support .
They have never let me felt insecure or lonely but the only thing that has always made me restless of thinking was ,what if when one day ill woke up and there would be no one to accompany my morning walks? What if when one day I came back to home and couldn’t find them? What if when one day there would be no one to turn me towards the right path? What if when one day there would be no one to tell me all those fascinating stories that have always been my motivation to move ahead? how would I play when my aces got missing ?what if one day there would be no one to hear me out, with whom would I share my inner demons, my fears ,my excitement and all of my emotions?
Years and years passed away I grew young and they grew older ,I grew strong ,independent ,they became weak and dependent ,dependent on each other dependent on someone or should i say us ,yes we the kids…
Since the day when my grandpa got his first cardiac attack I was asked to prepare myself for that one day. Since then I was trying harder and harder to accept that after all those winning heads in the family there would a tail some day. When my bubble shield would be broken and I had to fly on my own.
Every next time when he got sick my brain got stabbed by all those scary thoughts. And probably he knew all about my fears. so, whenever I use to meet him I always saw him smiling and assuring me that he is goanna live really longer ,assuring me that whenever ill get back home ill find him sitting next to me with same old stories and a smile on his face.
On March 7, 2018 he passed away on ventilator when I was here miles away and I got this news 4 days after he was gone. Next day was my exam so I had no time left to shed tears; I had no one to share my pain with. that time I had to focus yes, I knew that was hard but no other options left for me and somehow I manged, i managed to believe that when ill get back home ill find him sitting next to my with the same smiling face as he promised me .
No I couldn’t accept the truth because my brain wasn’t ready yet, wasn’t ready to accept any information, knowledge, facts, no news, nothing.
Every time when I think about how death would be? when there would be no pain ,no emotions, no stress, no work pressure etc., when suddenly you stop feeling anything ,end of all the emotions and you will reach to some other world .something that is really memorising .well that’s actually what we wish for ,no pain ,stress less life …
So is it like all this time we were waiting for death since the day we were born? Actually yes and thus this tail worth celebrating too…
But then why people cry? Well it’s not about the pain in death it’s the pain of losing some one, the pain of defeat in the battle where you failed to save them.
The pain for which we are always scared of when we already knew that one day would surely come when all your 52 cards would get abundant .that one day your shield would be broken .
See I know all the facts and figures but I’m still not ready to accept this death sentence. Are u?